All I Wanna Do Is. . .

Not a new song, but i've been obsessed with it recently. Its fun dancing to it too heheh. MIA-"Paper Planes"

Shop the streets to find out who I am

"Shed Your Love"- The Helio Sequence

Absolutely beautiful. period.

I heard you calling back to me. . .

I'm happy to say that I finally own The Helio Sequence's new album "Keep Your Eyes Ahead." This song, same name as the cd, is one of my favorites on the album. It has lots of luscious layering, strong vocals and a lovely ending. I'm VERY pleased with the rest of the songs as well, it's like their old stuff, but more mature. Enjoy : )

A piece of you for a piece of me

So I think I might turn my blog into a music/"whats going on my life" type of blog.


Recently, I've been obsessed with this song because of the vocals and how intricate/complex the music is. I also want to mention that I find it to be sexy, for some strange reason. It is called "Knights" and is by Minus the Bear. Hope someone else enjoys it as much as I do. Warning, the video is a little tripy. . .okay, A LOT tripy. LOL.

Patience is virture. . .

I'm not feeling so virtuous at the moment.


Well, you all know that I have been applying to graduate school for a Ph.D. in Sociology. Good thing is, I'm all done applying, have been for a while now. I applied to 4 schools and since February I have been rejected from three of them. In all honesty, I was rather relieved. Why? Because maybe, just maybe i'm not ready to get my Ph.D. at this moment in my life. Maybe i'm not ready for such a long and arduous task. To obtain a Ph.D. in sociology requires a minimum of 4 years and a maximum of 6 (although I don't think there is a maximum because I've heard as much as 9 years). Knowing myself, it would probably take me 6 years to do it. With one of my rejections came a little surprise. Although the University of Chicago did not accept me into their Sociology Ph.D. program, they did accept me into their one year Masters in the Social Sciences Program. I was happy to have one option. Currently, I am waiting to hear back from Wayne State. Wane State only offers admittance into their Ph.D. program if you already have a M.A. degree, so I had no choice but to apply to their M.A. in Sociology program, but I chose the M.A. as a preliminary to the Ph.D. I think this was a great move on my part, applying to Wayne State, because I honestly can't see my self living away from home (in another state). I had a friend that was going with me I would do it in a second because I would already have someone that I knew in Chicago. You're probably wondering why the H I would apply to schools in Chicago if I'm not ready to leave the nest?? Truthfully, I don't know the answer to that. I guess a part of me was hoping that I would be forced to learn how to fly on my own. So now, I'm waiting for WSU's decision and I honestly don't know what I will do if I don't get accepted into their program. Will I "force" myself to go to Chicago? I DON'T KNOW! My patience has been shot, and I've been an emotional mess but my friends and family and God have been their for me and I'm thankful for that. I wish God would just be like "Cindy, THIS is what you gotta do and THIS is where you will go, and THIS is how your life will turn out" but, unless I start seeing visions soon, that's not gonna happen LOL. The only thing I can do is wait and see what unfolds before me.


peace, love and music.

P.S. Please enjoy this nice, relaxing instrumental called "Leraine" by Secede

i don't where i'm going but i wanna talk

when something is bothering you, just let it all out (talking about, crying, etc). it works wonders.

Hello,

This will be my last post for January. Haven't really been posting much, but its time for an update :)


Well...I finally have my very own car, I didn't buy it, I leased it. It's a 2008 Honda Civic in atomic blue metallic. I gave up half of my savings and gotta take care of monthly payments, but its worth it. It feels good to not have to share my moms car and to drive wherever I want whenever I want (although not really cause as long as I'm living with the folks they still have a say in where I go, lol). But, its a vast improvement! I'm still working at Express and I'm starting to enjoy it a little more. I mostly enjoy it when I do floor set or work in the back room. I'm still waiting to hear from grad schools. Should be hearing mid next month or early march. I pray to God that I get into a good school and into the one that is right for me.

Other than all that good stuff, I've just been living, loving, and laughing.

:)

I really do believe I have the greatest and most unique friends in the world.



p.s. Success! Candace created a blog!

Life

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, maybe some of it unnecessary.

Naturally, I'm a worrier. My dad says that its a good quality because it shows that I care a great deal about things. I kinda, sorta agree, however, sometimes i feel like it hinders me. There have been moments when I did not take advantage of certain opportunities because of my worries and fears. I don't want that to happen this year, but i can't seem to shake my "what if" thoughts concerning graduate school. I don't know what I'm going to to do if i don't get accepted into the schools that I applied to, I don't have a plan B. Quite honestly I don't want a freakin plan B. I want to get into U of M again, and get my Ph.D. and be happy. I don't want any set backs. Two of the schools that I applied to are in Chicago...that's another issue. I'm very close to my family and have never been separated from them (yes, i've been away at school, but U of M was only 45 mins away) being in another state (granted only about 4 hours away) scares the shit out of me. There is no doubt that the experience of being on my own would make me a stronger person, it's just a scary thought, being away from my family and friends in another state full of strangers. Northwestern University if my second choice. I would be so happy and thankful if i get accepted there because its a very good school. The only thing I can do is try to think positively and just wait to hear back from the schools. and pray :)

I'll have to make a lot of important decisions this year, but life is full of important decisions.

why not, ey?

Since a couple of my friends have an account on here, i decided to create one also. I have a livejournal account, but only one friend on there, so its not really that fun hehehe. I'll try to keep this updated with new happenings. so just chill, 'til the next episode... hahaha